Whats In My Head

its been awhile

2005-02-18T03:25:32Z

So its been way to long since i've updated
and since i really don't know what to say
i decided to dedicate this journal to my love:

I saw you walking baby
Walking down on the street
Oh how I wanted to catch your eye
I longed for us to meet
But you just walked on by
Without even a line
And I just shook my head 'cause
Damn honey you're fine

Every day I would just hang there
Just hoping to catch a glance
Oh how I would love you so
If I just had the chance
The word was on the street
I heard it through the grapevine
Everybody thought
Damn honey you're fine

One day I was just hanging
Just hanging on the street
And you came walking by
My heart it skipped a beat
And you looked at me
Your lips moved and said hi
My mouth it couldn't move
How could I have catched your eye

Then you took my hand
As we went for a walk
We did not even speak
We didn't need to talk
Then I touched your hair
In the moonlight did it shine
And I kissed your lips
Damn honey you're fine

Your lips were oh so soft
Your taste it was so sweet
You filled my heart with love
I finally was complete
We saw this shining star
And took it as a sign
That we were meant to be together
Damn honey you're fine

Now you are in my heart
Each night and every day
I love you darling angel
To this to you I say
I've always believed in God
And longed for this true love
Tonight I thank the stars
I thank the Lord above

Tonight I'll lay to sleep
And curl up in my bed
I'll dream about this vision
This vision in my head
And I'll tell the angels
That I'm so glad you're mine
For I love you with all my heart
Damn honey you're fine...

so thats it for this journal

felt like updating

2005-01-30T19:06:51Z

Yea so i start second semester tomarrow
which means i will be going to class, doing hw, running, and thinking of sarah

everyone is comming back today
i don't know if i want them here or not
cause the silence of this past month was really cool

but then again they are all really fun to hang out with

i don't know

anywhooo
i have been thinking a lot this month

is it possible to love so much that everyday your away from them it feels like a year
i mean i am sacrificing a big part of my life to see this girl

during spring break i'm sposed to go to a meet in north carolina
now that is a huge experience
that could be extremely fun

but i'm willing to throw that away for this girl

now if you know me track is my life
almost everything comes after track

but there is just something about college
i talk to her every night
and it just feels like the more i talk the closer we become
i mean sometimes i just want to never let go of her and hold her till we die

ok i think i'm done venting my mind for a bit

see everyone today or a special someons case 47 days
-Curtis

confusion

2005-01-18T17:15:59Z

Ok

I am redoing this entry

mainly cause i'm a complete idiot.

It really was sarah.

tho she was calling me an asshole for a certain reason

she thought that the certain someone who told me to update was her.
when in fact it was beth being really annoying and saying
"I'm bored with your live journal. You should update it."
"I'll update it when i feel like it!" exclaimed curtis
"But i've read all your other entries and they aren't fun anymore." beth said annoyingly

so then i updated

ok so i must apologize to lauren and beth because i thought it was them who replied to my last entry pretending to be sarah.

This is the first time sarah has replied to an entry and said it was sarah
so i didnt' think it was her

also i have some semi-jerk friends who would do something like that
so i must be careful from now on

update

2005-01-11T02:29:23Z

Some one told me to update this

So here it is

UPDATED AS OF JANUARY 10th 2005

later everyone
-Curtis

New Year

2005-01-03T19:35:50Z

New Year
New Curtis

After finding out that i didn't get the grades i wanted and relized that college is a bit harder than i thought with sports

I have made 2 new years resolutions.

number 1: Completely switch my mental state towards getting asignments done ontime as well as making it at albright with balancing sports a job and all my work but if i have to drop something my love for sports goes first.

NUmBer 2: To create a possible passive income. For those not educated in money passive income is money that enters that you do not have to do anything to it in order for it to increase. You know those books or something like that online that it says buy it now and download the book. That becomes passive income.

Some People in my family (yes sarah you are family) did not recieve XMAs presents so once i obtain the correct amount of money to purchase those presents they shall indeed recieve them and be happy (hopefully)

This is one of those i feel like being smart journals
But i did update it so if your reading it and care then you can't complain about it not being funny or cool or whatever caaaaauuuuusssseeee i wrote what i felt like whether you like it or not

OH yea on a side note
MY phone is currently shut off until i pay my phone bill so don't try to call it to reach me.

BY ALL
-Curtis

wow

2004-12-29T23:17:17Z

Wow i just relized that i haven't updated this in over a month

I really should try to keep this thing more updated

But you know what

I've been busy

Hanging with the girl and cleaning the house.

Well Xmas was good times i got stuff that i needed so i'm content

I saw some movies over break and i leave on sunday.

I really don't have much to say to this thing

Ummm if i think of something i'll update but i just thought that it would be nice to update even tho i know people don't read this expecially because i don't have it in my profile when i'm home

OH WELL

anywhooo i guess i'm gunna go for now

See ACTF in a couple of days

-Curtis

future

2004-11-21T19:31:30Z

Why does the future seem so close yet it is so far?
Why do i think about the future when i live in the present?

why the hell am i writing these questions in here?

that last one i actually know the answer to
its cause this is the "live journal" my thoughts and everything to keep people updated on whats going on in my life.

i'm thinking to much
and not drinking enough

but also i'm not studying enough
and i dont' have a job

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

why am i letting things get to me
rawr

anyway i just felt like writing in this cause I WILL BE HOME IN 1 DAY

thank fucking god

it feels like forever since i've been home tho its only been like a month or less

but this time i'll be home for like almost a week
it would of been a week if i didn't have tests on monday
but thats ok cause i leave just about right after they are over

well not really cause i can't get a ride to the bus station right away

they would have to drive me right from lunch

oh well

i'll be home at like 11 at night

not that bad

This LIVE JOURNAL UPDATE has been brought to you by
SPAM
its discusting so don't eat it unless you have to

see everyone on tuesday with one exception
-Curtis

Way Home

2004-11-17T04:21:27Z

Hi HO HI HO
Its off to home i go

in less than a week

I will be home on monday
WOOT WOOT WOOT WOOT!!!!

If i time it right i should be home at like 7

which would be awsome
cause then i get to just hang out and watch a movie before bed

maybe even hang out with some special people

then i'll be practicing with my old team
If i could i would run time trials
tho i don't know if i would beat rajiv
but who knows

On a side note i've just about got my life in order now
All i have left to do is get a job

CAUSE I NEED MONEY
ONCE I GET MONEY I CAN BUY STUFF

possibly alcohol but doubt it
tho my XC team gets mad at me when i don't drink

who knows anymore

anyway i just felt like updating
so i did

later cats and kowalas and girls and everyone else
-Curtis

its that time again

2004-11-07T22:14:12Z

WElly well well

I have a good ten mins or so till din din

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo

i'm updating this finally

its been what a week or two or 3 or a month

so where should i start

i think i'll start with:

hello my name is curtis
I live at albright
I love long walks on the beach
my sign is a gemini

that really has nothing to do with what i've been up to
i just thought that i should tell everyone who i am since i've been busy

Well my ACXC season is over
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY

ITs time to win again
finally

i'll deff be keeping posts in here on my progress to success in indoor then outdoor track

or if your back home just ask cawley
i plan on keeping him posted and pestering him until he updates the record board.

Ok my funds have literally run out so i have to get a job like tomar because i need money in order to do stuff here

i suggest to my non-college friends that they start saving for college like now becuase when your at college you run through money for alcohol and food and just stuff in general

well thats it for now cause i'm off to din din

i'll prolly update right after it again

later gators
-Curtis

i don't know so how about PIE

2004-10-01T01:29:33Z

Yea so i keep being yelled at for not updating

so HERE WE GO!!! (in caps aren't they pretty)

I feel pretty
oh so pretty
I feel pretty and whitty and gay
and i pitty
any girl who isn't prettier than me!!!

Sry it was a random song happening
so i had to type it

Yea so i'm watching the presidential debate and its really boring
you would think it would be unboring but it sux

and i thought that comedy central would have something on it and make fun of it but no
they are being cool and showing Reno 911 (which rules)

so now i'm torn
comedy central
debate
comedy central
debate

wow i just relized that this has nothing to do with pie
hrmmm how can i include pie
i know

PIE

there now there is pie in this

yea
i forgot where i was going with this

hrmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

i Have determined that curtis deprived is a new desiese(making my own word)

it is where you have a lack of hanging out with curtis in you

its symptoms include:
depression
sadness
going crazy when you see me
and ummm
i dunno
any other feelings that may come across you when i'm not around

yea so i'm dun for now
later people
-Curtis the ultimate

New Layout

2004-09-21T00:53:38Z

OK So i was bored and i looked at sarah's journal and i was
hrmmmm

Mine looks so boring

so i changed it to look sexy

might change it again cause i don't know if i like notebook

yea so we did the pagoda run today
for those not on ACXC its 2.5 miles uphill and 4.1 downhill

it was so relaxing
it would of been better if i had my cd player but i'll deal

Classes are going supurb

I still don't get comments so i'm assuming that no one reads this

so i'll just say everything that i've done
like drank since 9 in the morning on sat cause our meet got cancelled and i'm easily influenced here by my team
Thats actually about it

I'm eatin a lot of food that sucks once in awhile

my knees are holding together so i'm still running

and i think thats about it for now

Operation surprise surprise 2 million cause i said so is still a go

until next time
-Curtis

Been AWhile

2004-09-19T20:59:35Z

Back By Popular Demand

My Live Journal Has Been Updated!!!

with this journal

So lets see here what have i been up to.
Well I went to get some cheat codes, yes i know cheat codes = bad, and tons of spyware loaded on my computer.
But finally i fixed it and my comp is back to normal, *phew*

I don't know who has been reading this so i can't put some stuff that i've been up to.
If you want to know details IM me after all you're reading this from my profile.

Huge News That Will Become Surprise Surprise part 2 million cause i feel like it.

Yes i Have made a new plan
And i have determined that operation suprise surprise 2 million cause i feel like it will be a big success

no it does not involve sarah like the last one
This is a bigger one that i have let some people in on
NO ONE ELSE!!!!

School is going awsome
ACXC is kicking Ass like we should be

Ok think thats all for now
i'll update prolly in a week or so
cause i still don't think people read this

injured

2004-08-30T22:40:32Z

Well lets see here

People don't respond to my messages so i don't know who is looking at this

But let me update everyone who actually is reading it.

I'm injured
I have tendinitus in my right knee, which was caused by the to much milage of college XC and by my boney knees. A sad thing is that it was going to happen sooner or later. I was hoping for later ;)

So i've been swimming instead of running.

2. Classes have started today
I have them on mon weds and fri from 9-230 with breaks inbetween

'If you want my full schedule IM me'

They weren't bad cause i have none tomar so i can do my hw tomar while everyone is at their classes and sleep in

3. I GOT A CELL PHONE FINALLY
the number is (631) 219-4162

its been so helpful since i got it
i can call all my friends for free :-D

ok well thats everything up till now
I'm off for awhile

byee
-Curtis

ACXC

2004-08-24T14:40:14Z

Well I'm in college now
Its not bad let me tell you

Two nights, two parties= good times

But there is two down falls to it all
Lack of sleep
and not feeling the best in the morning after

And every morning practice is an hour run
A fucking hour
like i remember back in high school XC going out walking for like half the run, taking crazy short cuts and being done in like an hour

but this is an hour straight of running
For those of your back home reading this or have been on PJXC its like running to the lighthouse and back every morning and then another 45 min run in the after noon

I miss pj and all my friends back home

I also miss my boo
but she's on a cruise and doesn't have her phone
I think i'll leave a voicemail for her later

I miss my '04s we had some good time this summer and i can't wait to see everyone again.

OK well thats all for now

-Curtis

Fucking Scared

2004-08-03T06:15:43Z

Ok Well i had to write about this cause i have no idea what happend.
I was just at sarah's house swimming and then we just sat on her porch.

Well i was on my way home and everything was just how it always was when i did late nights but once i started walking up high street after crossing east broadway i thought i saw a figure of a guy who was standing there.
Thats not it either.

I kept walking and slowly got up to a speed walk then to a jog and then finally a run. I dont know what it was but it felt like i was being followed so i had to keep looking back for a quick glimps.
Then as i passed the mounts house for some reason every single criket was in sync with the other and it sounded so creepy.
So again i picked up the pace and kept looking backwards.
It felt as tho i was being watched from every angle.
so i again picked up the speed as my heart kept beading faster and faster as the fact that i was flipping out.

Finally i reached my house and went in the basement door and locked it and bent over so that if anyone passed bye they couldnt' see me but i had a small hole to look out of so that i could see anything.
And it felt like the movie signs when its the kids bday party and everyone is yelling out the window and then finally you saw the alien.

My breath became a rythm that suited me when i ran, and i just had to keep looking out that window with the door locked of course to see if anything really was following me that maybe i lost it.

After finally feeling relieved and inside the house i walked up my basement stairs and opened the door trying not to make a sound as to not wake anyone.

Well I did make noice and my mom, who i had no idea was sleeping downstairs on the coach, woke up with this really creepy curtis.
Ok i don't care who you are or if you believe any of this but that scared the shit out of me that i jumped and yelled so loud that i think i woke up the neighbors.

And since it was my mom i calmed down and felt relieved to be safe but i really don't think i am.

hopefully i'll get to sleep tonight

scared still
-Curtis

P.S. I wrote this so that i can recall it in the future

P-A-R-T-Y

2004-08-01T16:30:52Z

wow its been a long time since i updated so i might have a long entry.

Last night was Nicks party
good times
lots of alcohol
160 proof is amazing stuff

one problem tho
when i came home i talked to my girlfriend online
and was the biggest asshole to her and i'm not one to be an asshole
i mean i read the conversation and it was pretty funny at first but then it went out of hand and kinda makes me sad cause i don't like making people feel bad.

Oh and if anyone reads this party is friday and is basically a byob but no one is allowed to walk around with beer bottles
I plan on staying sober for a long time to make sure everything is going fine and then will drink at the end so that this will be good times.

wow i thought it would be longer
oh well
thats it for now
-curtis

P.S.
I leave on the 22nd of august so if i need to hang with you let me know so that i can make enough time for everyone
or just come to my party friday so we can hang a bit

Operation: Surprise Surprise

2004-07-23T14:41:04Z

Its Me again.

HEHE of course its me i'm the only one who can write in this.

anyway I thought that i should tell everyone what Operation: Surprise Surprise was first before i say what happend.

Operation: Surprise Surprise:
Plan: My plan was to surprise someone very special to me with something she would never expect and at a random time.

Proccess: Not to speak to her for a couple of days so that i seem weird. Then show up at her house cause she is grounded for ever.

Ok that was Operation: Surprise Surprise and i must say that it was almost a bust but thanx to my smooth moves it worked out.

It almost failed because sarah came online and read my away message that day and said that if it was for her that she would not be home till 7. So being the stupid man that i am, I changed my away message that i put it on hold. When sarah came home she went online and read that i put it on hold and determined that yes it was for her. So to convince her other wise i used my smooth moves and said that it was a success. That was almosted busted when the sexy sarah decided to call and find out what it was. All i said was i'm not allowed to tell you cause it involved something with justin. she was very persistant until she finally gave up cause i can be hard to deal with sometimes.

(Don't worry this entry is almost done.)

Finally i got off the phone with her so i grabed her presents and ran to her house to surprise her and when i got there i knocked on her door and perfectly she answered it.

S-U-C-C-E-S-S thats the way you spell success!!

ok i'm out cause i have stuff to do today
-Curtis

First Time For Everythin

2004-07-21T02:39:36Z

Well Thanks to Kathleen's profile i have also decided to create a live journal and will keep it as up to date as i can.

For those that don't know me much
I'm Curtis
HI!!

I work at stop and shop. Its a grocery chain.

I'm having an ok summer. I should be running but shhh dont' tell anyone.

Ok i'm not going to lie i hate this thing. I really dont' know what to write in them so thats why i never had one till now. Expecially cause i have a gf who if i need to vent can talk to cause she knows me extremely well.

So i have created one anyway and will try to write in it everyday so that everyone can know how i'm doing.

I'm going for tonight.
byee
-Curtis